Showing posts with label merlyn. Show all posts
Showing posts with label merlyn. Show all posts

Composite Me

 You know, I've always dreamed, made goals, plans, to do lists, counted calories,
did the "I shoulds" for the most part...

But maybe I've been doing things like that and it's been the wrong way.

Maybe I should hold a different image of myself.

What would I wish to be?

They say in society we can be whatever image we want to be.

My life has come to some conclusions.
College, marriages, kids, home, career. All somewhat accomplished and in my back pocket.

What now?

My wishes include: travel, a kick ass body, money, love, lust, fantasy and fame. Oh, and adoring fans too :)

SO

What would this Vixen look like?
Well, she'd look like ME, only UBER me, more svelte, more tan and with longer hair.
 (and TALLER....as a friend recently said, "There is no one shorter than you." :(

What would this ideal Vixen act like?
Well, for starters, she'd be more immune to assholes and bullshit, she'd suffer no fools, she'd be sensible, down to earth, emotionally in control of herself, content with what life has given her, yet still up for adventure and FUN.   

Sort of cross between:
Me, Loreena McKennitt, Madonna, Candace Night, Janis Joplin, Mary Magdalene....and Rita Rudner :)
 Aside from the part where I need: money, a full time counselor, a life coach, personal trainer, fashion consultant. chiropractor, personal massage therapist, dance instructor and agent.....

I think it is doable

I think I will attempt to put this image out there for me to follow as a beacon.
 OH Naughty, Naughty Zoot.....

Merlyn A-Z

  Merlyn A to Z :)

Hey ho my loverlies!

I have been pretty busy and hope you are well and happy....and have a Great Thanksgiving! 

Just a quickie for now, these little survey thingies are fun and I haven't done one in awhile, I stole this from Lynn on her "So I was Thinking" blog.....Enjoy!!!

Age: 51

Bed size:  Queen. Mattress and box spring on the floor by choice. It us better for our backs, lovemaking...and well....no monsters can live under the bed that way :)

Chore I hate: Sorting socks

Dogs: JOE!!  As in "Monty "Old Iron Guts" Joe ,the Wonder Schnoodle of War :)

Essential start to my day: Spooning up behind Harry for snuggles for 5 more minutes....then COFFEE.

Favorite color: to wear? Navy or Turquoise. To live around? Hunter Green and Sangria :)

Gold or silver: Silver silver silver. Silver makes me feel awesome. If I feel "off", I just buy a new bracelet...

Height: short :) But only short on one end

Instruments I play: Voice, 12 string guitar, bodhran, mandolin and autoharp

Job title: Depends on which hat I'm wearing. Musician or Admin Assistant

Kids: 2 wonderful girls. Grown. Happy.

Live: Squirrel Haven

Mother's name: Bernie

Nicknames: Honey :)

Overnight hospital stays: a couple

Pet Peeve: when people add an "r" onto words that don't need it. Like "Idea" becomes "Idear". ack.

Quote from a movie:
Moonstruck:
"Do you love him Loretta?"
"No ma."
"That's good, cuz when you love them they drive you crazy."
Then later.....
"Do you love him, Loretta?"
"yah mom, I love him awful",
"That's too bad."

Right or left handed: ambidextrous

Siblings: 5

Time I wake up: early bird

Underwear: most days :)

Vegetable I hate: Okra. Well....not okra so much as.... "okra slime".

What makes me run late: Harry :)

X-rays I've had: yes.a bunch over the years...

Yummy food I make: I am a great cook! I can make something out of nothing. But some favorites are: Scalloped potatoes, roasts, 7 layer casserole, eggs Benedict, tuna casserole, enchiladas, lasagna

Zoo animal: Lions and Tigers and Monkeys!


I also have a theory that everyone has a "Nightmare Dinner" .

This would be a dinner that you would have to pass on, (even the no thank you bites) if a friend offered it to you at their house.
Now, I'm not a fussy person at ALL....but....here's my "Nightmare Dinner":

Snack: Fritos' corn chips. (they smell like cat's feet. Go ahead. Compare.) and Jax
Drink: Cream Soda
Vegetable: Okra
Carb: Grits (they have no flavor and if you have to doctor something in order to eat it, why bother?)
Main dish: Chicken Fricasee and dumplings. (read: slime and rocks)
Dessert: Green tomato mincemeat pie
Candy: Orange circus peanuts
Alcoholic Beverage: Yukon Jack and Southern Comfort. (never, never, never again)

What's YOUR nightmare dinner?

30 Things About Me


1 I sing and talk to my dog. Pretty constantly, and I have inspired everyone who lives with me to also do it on occasion. It’s a wonderful creative release and love flows.

2 I read a lot. But not as much as I’d like. I generally have several books going at once.

3 I love my girls with all my heart, but I’m glad that they have lives of their own now, so I can have one too. I also like that I’m not cleaning up the wake after them. With Jesse gone, the constant cleaning up is gone, and with Shawna gone, my cupboards are staying organized. This is simply amazing to me. I notice this most after they visit.

4 I used to sing and write as a wee child. My mother would have me sing to her as she drove and I rode in the back seat, standing with my feet straddling the hump between the seats. There was no such thing as seatbelts then. I sang to my mother because she loved it so and because she asked. This was the most attention for my singing I ever had from her. She was a singer too, but too busy the rest of the time as a farm wife to find time for me.

5 I never took a lesson on my guitar till after I’d been playing for 20 years. And I only did It because I needed the college elective. 

6 I can’t read music. It’s laborious, tedious and stifling to me. It makes my skin crawl. I am self taught and figure out music by ear, repetition and ingenuity. I learn songs that I like.

7 I once had 7 boyfriends at once in HS. I realized it was too much work to keep them separate.

8I like being in love more than anything

9 I once lived on the same road as a serial killer who joked to my brothers about killing me. This same guy once picked up me and my friend hitchhiking. We are lucky to be alive. He is in jail now forever after killing 7 women. I will write about it all one day. But I can't yet. It's just too scary...and REAL. I don’t watch thrillers or slasher movies or scary movies because my life and imagination are too real time for that.

10 I wish I was thinner but when I was, I wasn’t’ thin enough and it is too much work to make that happen. I like being comfortable now. I’m a good pillow and a sweet snuggler.

11 I love who I love because I need them and they need me. They complete me.

12I am very spiritual and say my prayers every night in some way before I sleep. I also pray out loud for my men, my children, my dog if they are going thru something hard. I lay on my hands on them and we pray together. It helps us all.

13 I have tried many religions (due some to my mother’s influence). Baptized Catholic, then went to learn about Baptists, Presbyterian, 7th Day Adventist, Methodist, Pentecostal, Episcopalian, Assembly of God, Dutch Reformed, and United Methodist. I am currently a Unitarian Universalist member who runs pagan services there.

14 Went to a Catholic Mass with Talon for a funeral. We were both baptized Catholic, but do not practice anymore. We were both amazed and astounded that we still knew the church service, call and response, when to sit stand or kneel at the time called….after 35 years time passage away…

15 I love to write.  I have been published. I want to write something wild and creative and popular. I want my readers to laugh, cry or ponder after they read something I’ve writen.

16 I really can’t whistle.

17 I taught my kids how to swear. By example.

18 When angry, I am a force of nature. I do not trust myself when I get like that. I am in danger. You are in danger. Soothing words are the only thing that helps me. LOVE. Much love. Do not rile me at that point. You are not safe. No one is.

19 I can be the sweetest, funniest person who will spoil you. You will never find another me.

20 I once sat in the snow across the road on Christmas Day and cried for an hour because my life at that point in time was so awful. My next door neighbor said she saw me thru her window and said she laughed. I still hate her for that.

21 I have magical powers. You may not believe me, but I once made a few things move, visiblily. I also can sometimes predict the future, know what you are thinking/feeling, know who is on the phone most times. I also have the power of invisibility. I know this because I have not been caught yet.

22 I have had several out of body experiences. Once when I was very young and didn’t even know what it was all about. I bumped my head on the ceiling and looked down and saw my sleeping child body on the bed.  It scared me so much that I jumped back to …me.

23 I was pestered by an evil spirit in my childhood home. I feared for my life and didn’t want to go to sleep or be alone in my room. This is probably also why I don’t like being alone much now, even though I am safe now..

24 I have seen an Angel when I was a child and a fairy when I was an adult.. For real. I kid you not. Please don’t think I’m crazy. They were beautiful and amazing. The angel was terrifyingly beautiful in an awesome powerful way. It scared me. I asked it to not show itself to me ever again, because it frightened me so.. It said it wouldn’t, but it would always be my protector and hid itself from me. I now regret my request and wish I could see it again.

25 My name is Merlyn because my given name is Marilyn and I was so entrenched in Arthurian legend in HS that my name was twisted by my peers and I go by both now. I also have an affinity to magic and magical things, and feel the power of a strong personality of Merlin the Magician.

26 I can make a meal out of whatever is in the house. Even if the cupboards are bare.

27 I have an incredible memory for lyrics, passwords and recesitation. But don’t make me learn anything electrical or mechanical. I just don’t get it.

28 I love deeply and hurt very easily. Then I will hurt you. Then I will forget about the intensity of the storm and love you deeply again. I ask you to please forget the bad stuff too.

29 Even though I can be the sweetest, kindest, most generous, happy, make the drink come out your nose friend….What goes around, comes around. Don’t fuck with me. I’m a pirate.

30 I will always hope to go to heaven and be with my former pets and parents when I die. No matter what my religious beliefs are, I will also always believe in Jesus. He was the coolest person in history (or even an amalgamation of several people) and I believe in his archetype. I also believe in the Goddess. She helps me daily and I want to meet her then.